I often wonder about the messages I get from the universe. Often they are little magical moments in which I know without a doubt, that I am on the right path- moving in the right direction.Other times I wonder why it takes me so long to "get the message".
I stay stuck in patterns that I know are not working for me, yet I stubbornly stay in the same place, doing the same thing. Sometimes I try things in various ways, all trying to will my desires out of the situation- but I've learned that certain times, our will can run wild and lead us nowhere.
And there are yet other messages that I notice, that I cannot help but notice. They come along, maybe they knock once or twice, but soon they bump me over the head in a very attention getting type way..and I get the message. However, deciphering the message is sometimes a challenge. "What am I supposed to learn from this?" I may often ask.
Last night I got a message- unfortunately it was one of those knock you right on your backside type messages. I fell (inside the house..I cannot even blame poor weather or ice) and I broke my foot.I couldn't believe it! it was so silly! I stood up quickly, in some hurry to get nowhere fast, and my leg had fallen asleep- I should have noticed that!!! but I didn't, too wrapped up in my head and thinking and clearly not paying attention to my own body.
IF you have ever tried to walk on a leg and foot that is asleep- you might know it doesn't go well. I stood up went to take a step, my toes dragged sleepily behind the rest of my fast moving foot and leg. I stepped down and put my weight on the foot that was asleep and curled oddly under my foot- and heard a loud "POP" I fell to the ground screaming in pain.
Right away my dog charlie was hovering over me, sniffing me and licking my face.poor guy- it probably scared him.I tried to get up but couldn't. Luckily my mother was in the kitchen and heard the commotion. When she asked me what had happened I had to explain this silly situation. I couldn't help but laugh through the pain- as it was totally absurd.
Why did I not notice my leg was asleep? why was I in such a rush to get up and leave the room? where was my brain?where was I going anyway? Sadly, I have no answers to any of the above questions.I fumbled to my good leg, and hobbled out into the living room to look at my foot, which was now beginning to swell oddly on the side. hum...my mom looked at it and said "you broke it, going to have to go get x-rays"
UGH!!! this Monday wasn't a good one. Within the hour I was in a wheelchair at emergency department, shyly having to re-tell this embarrassing story. x-rays were taken and indeed I broke it. Now I have to hobble around on crutches trying to accomplish the smallest tasks, since I cannot bare any weight on my foot- which by the way is now more swollen and various shades of black and blue. Was this a message for me to slow down perhaps? So far, I think that is indeed the message.
Yesterday not only was I running around with no direction, but my mind and emotions were doing the same. Sad really that I had to break my foot in order to slow down and pay more attention...lol- this is a lesson I obviously needed to learn. "Keep it simple" a friend says, I smile and nod and keep going.
Okay, I get it, one thing at a time, keep things simple, and slow down...I get the message! :) Funny thing was that last week my grandmother broke her foot too, in the same place, same bone and everything.
She fell on the ice, unlike me..but I suppose now that I cannot walk, or drive (since it is my driving foot) I will have to sit down and slow down.
positive side to all this? well, the Olympics start this weekend- so if I have to be sitting still- I can at least watch some Olympics :)I hope you get your messages in a much easier, kinder, and less painful way. Oh and maybe I can paint or "pimp" my crutches..to be all colourful :)
peace and light
strength of fragile things
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